Nothing to See Here, Interesting Things Coming Again Someday

Yes, I know my post yesterday was half-assed. I really only had half an ass to work with, but I don't think that is a good excuse. I want blogging to be a good theraputic tool for me, like I know it can be, but sometimes I don't know how much to put out there.

I had a big issue weighing on me, but it wasn't really something I wanted to post about on the internet. Most of the (two or three) people who read this blog know who I am, but even so, as much as writing may help me figure things out, there are some things that are not easy for me to discuss in any forum.

I think the medication changes have had a huge effect on me, though I see a lot of progress in adjusting to the new dose. I'm still not out of the woods yet, but things are getting better. I had a panic attack in the middle of the night last night, and I haven't had one of those in a long time. I couldn't breathe, I broke out in cold sweats, and sobbed uncontrollably for about 30 minutes. Today I feel like I'm in recovery; like I've been dragged behind a bus for a few miles and need to compose myself and treat the road rash. I feel better now, in a way. Clearer somehow.

Something needs to happen. Something like purple hair, or a new tattoo, or something.